Trying.

Next rant.
It feels a little retard though.
But it's okay. I think I'll feel better after letting it out.
I know I shouldn't be giving a damn.
Had been telling myself all along, to stop caring.
But I just couldn't help it.
That conflict between them, made me feel the need to continue caring.
Because I really can't take it seeing this happen over and over again.
Had been trying my best, trying my best to not let her feel alone.
Trying to start a conversation with her, talking to her, calling her out.
Just to make sure she doesn't feel down.
But hey. She doesn't seem to care and doesn't seem to need it.
I thought, the past might mean something to her.
But I guess, I was wrong too.
It's been almost a year.
I shouldn't even be bothered.
But I still do.
Never did I admit it to anyone.
Even my closest friends.
I just felt like it isn't worth it.
Will it be even appreciated?
Will she even bother?
No, I don't think so.